New can be wonderful or uncomfortable...Your choice

Sometimes things happen that I want to hold all to myself. What I am describing would be a scenario such as exploring a new love or in my case a new kind of love. I decided not to hold it all to myself and instead share a little bit of my sunshine. Love brings such an effortless happiness.  This love is like none that I have ever experienced.  It has been such a sweet blessing and I am so grateful.  My new love has given me a deeper appreciation for all the existing love in my life. I can only now understand what it means to fall in love with someone that you have not technically met. Appreciate the love in your life. Give your kids an extra special hug today, kiss your spouse just because or call up your best friend just to say hello.     

Vitiligo Point of View
I am usually very open about my vitiligo, but when my doctor was on vacation and I had to see a new doctor I was not happy.  I am very comfortable with my doctor because I have been with him for years, before and now during the vitiligo years.  I was not comfortable discussing or even displaying my vitiligo to this new doctor. Of course, I had to display my vitiligo. It's obvious on my hands, and I had to partially disrobe to be examined.

Photo by Lotus Head
Johannesburg, Gauteng, South Africa
http://www.pixelpusher.co.za/

The super confident, "Ms. Vanilla Chocolate Swirl" (Vanilla Chocolate Swirl or Neapolitan Flavored?: see original blog post dated: 08/12/09) felt so vulnerable during that visit.  I never even mentioned my vitiligo, which is rare for me. I usually bring it up, just to make others more comfortable.  I am physically fit and it really had nothing to do with my visit, which is why I presume the doctor never mentioned it either or maybe he just did not know how to bring it up. I am so glad that this was a not new beginning whereas I was changing doctors, because my doctor has returned.  However, "change is inevitable" and that new beginning will eventually come. From confident to uncomfortable and back to confident...It is interesting how the mind (or ego, I'm not sure but I would suspect that my ego had something to do with it too) works.